Ghosts, spirits, strange happenings, synchronicity, Angels, demons, spirit guides, healing, crystals, moon magic, candles, mother nature have all been a part of my life.
As a young child I heard, felt, saw strange things, growing up weird things happened to me and as an adult, I have been asked to help spirit find peace. I work with angels and guides to help healing for the living and spirit and I embrace Paganism in my own way.
Attitude of Gratitude
Do you show gratitude for the things in your life? I do, though it wasn’t always so. I didn’t believe that I had anything to be grateful for. My life was a mess having endured and survived various abuses, violent relationships, estranged families and suicide attempts which eventually involved admitting myself into a psychiatric hospital so I could try and stay alive long enough to ‘feel’ something.
When I tell people my background, many are disturbed and disbelieving as they cannot see how I, the strong, powerful woman they see today, could possibly be a broken, lost woman of twenty-eight years ago. But I was broken and for years after, I could not see any light in my life, even though it was right in front of me.
I began to see the joy of life and I began to enjoy it. Strangely, it was the death of our son, Jac, that helped me see life as it should be. He survived against all odds to reach 36 weeks when medically, he should never have survived past 10/12 weeks max. If a tiny babe could live, then surely, so could I?
I began to be grateful for it. I began to want it and I grabbed it.
It is too easy to focus on the darkness of our lives and there will always be something negative to focus our attention onto. I’ll list a variety of mine. See if you can relate?
I don’t have enough money to really live.
I don’t have what my best friend has.
Why can’t I get what I want?
Why did I have to suffer?
I must be a horrible person because shit happens to me.
Everyone else gets what they want, why can’t I?
I wish I was slimmer. My body hates me.
This is just a small amount of negative focusing I have done over the years. Believe me, there is plenty more, but I am beginning to realise, I have so much more than negative around me, focusing on the bad bits, just isn’t worth my energy. I cannot fix the get rich quick problem unless my books become best sellers…(hint hint!!) I cannot fix my body as I have a thyroid problem which prohibits it from losing weight easily, and I enjoy my treats and ale, wine, martini, Baileys… Well, you get the idea!!
I do not dwell on what I cannot fix. I can only move forward on my journey and enjoy the ride.
I began my grateful journey a couple of years ago and look what I have.
Five novels (5th due out next week)
A book of short stories
A series of faerie books
I’m a chakradance facilitator, holistic therapist, drumming facilitator, counsellor, medium, trainer, workshop facilitator, beauty, health and sports therapist. Angel Voice healer.
MOTHER to a beautiful daughter
WIFE to a beautiful man
SISTER to three wonderful brothers
DAUGHTER to a loving father and step-mother.
I have numerous friends and acquaintances I have shared so much with.
I have readers all over the world who enjoy my creations. I am lucky to meet a lot of them at fairs, book signings, book launches etc.
I AM LUCKY TO BE ALIVE
Embrace life. It may not always be bright and shiny, but even during the dark days, you are breathing, you are alive, you are unique and you are a star.